going to sleep...but first...another contest!

so...i'm going 2 bed n a sec...feel cruddy...think i might be getting a cold...or run down from lack of sleep. who knows, it could b either w/ me lol...no not much going on today. had a mini meltdown, as i generally have everyday...about poor Bobbi. i wish i didnt feel like its my fault but i do...i feel like i let her down. oh well...2 mos already & all i want is her back. too bad there isnt really time machines...if only this was Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles! :) speaking of, stupid Fox canceled my beloved show...it was extremely kick a$$ this yr & the season 2 (now series!?!?!) finale was prob the best finale i've EVER seen!! no kidding. will write more about this all later...please all do me a favor (even if you don't watch it, do it for my sanity...i need some escape after losing Bobbi...so please...) & go sign the petition to have the show uncanceled or taken to a new network/format. please help us out...still can't believe Fox renewed Dollhouse over TSCC...what!! seriously?? ya'll know i worship @ the church of Joss Whedon, but lets get real, DH is only mediocre @ best. If u dont agree, sorry, that is just MY opinion. so i'm done w/ Fox, no more Idol, no more So You Think You Can Dance, no 24, no Fringe, no GLEE (and yes that 1 hurts!)...i still remember the days when Fox canceled awesome shows like Wonderfalls, Firefly, John Doe, Point Pleasant, Reunion, Tru Calling, etc etc...too many 2 remember them all! :(


ok enough about that...will chat more about that later...now the contest. FREE stuff is always awesome & the contest of the day @ any lucky day is for a ooma VoIP Phone System worth $250!!! free home phone service & no more bills EVER! WOW, that is an awesome prize, right???? again, it is all legit, bee already won something & DID receive her prize! so what are ya'll waiting for??? gooooooooooooooo enter!!!



ps--what some more awesome giveaways?? how about week in rewind? they always give away a bunch of dvds, both movies & shows...and they are also now having contests for some MAJOR SWAG, such as: iphone, itouch, apple tv & a flip mino....and you can enter alot, as often as you want on twitter! so go check it out!




ttyl xxooxx j

another contest

the latest contest of the day on any lucky day is for a KICKER iK500 iPod Dock. its a really cool prize w/ a retail value of $250. i could really use this as ben had bought me an itouch for my birthday (which was last sunday 5/17)...i love my itouch...but my last alarm/stereo i had bought for my nano wont fit the itouch. so i dunno if there is an adapter but this ipod stereo is much better than the thing i got @ walmart for less than $50. anyway contest ends TODAY in 3 hrs (Monday 5/25/2009 11:59:59 PM EST) so hurry & enter!! :)

ps-again will try to update soon but your best bet is to definitely follow me on twitter....i post there all the time & regularly! also, i am very possibly changing my blog to either wordpress or freewebs, will post link once i know which for sure. xox

cool giveaways!

so bee told me about this great site called any lucky day...they are always giving away some great prizes! bee even won something already! well, hopefully i will get lucky & win the little sleep machine! lord knows i could use it....still WIDE awake @ 1:30am!!! ack!! anyway, so ya'll go take a look & enter to win great little prizes! here is the latest giveaway!!!


will try to be back w/ more of an update soon...i havent blogged in forever....still missing my little bobbi!! life is just sooo hard....i need to blog about my little pup, to honor the 5 wonderful years we did have w/ her. just still way too new & fresh...don't know how people lose loved ones & keep going on....i can't....stuck in my pain. so yeah, for those that didnt know, we lost our youngest pup bobbi on 3/21/09. it was very sudden & my brother spent alot of money for the vets to try to save her. she had just turned 5 on 2/8/09....i miss her sooo much. she was my little miracle, born the SAME day that my dad passed away & named after him. she was ashley & logan's only surviving baby (she had only 1 other pup, a little boy that died in the womb)...and we just all are sooo sad. poor lulu misses her terribly & of course ashley took it very hard. so will try to blog more later & talk about bobbi & post some pix. i just honestly dont know how to go on....my heart is forever broken & it hasnt gotten any easier...

luv u guys...will talk 2 you all on twitter @ least....i'm still on there some!
xoxx jen

missing you...

i'm pretty sad cause my sis & her hubs & puppies are moving back to FL. they left on sat. yes i am back in CO, almost a month now...just been too depressed & busy to do much of anything. spending what little time i had left w/ my sis...and my mom who drove back w/ me & is now going back w/ bee. and my baby remo...i got spoiled w/ getting to see him...and now he is far away again & i will miss him terribly & worry everyday that i wont get to see him again.

so i was in FL for a long time & my pups were w/ me & my bro & i fought too much. its the redhead irish...not good lol. so we finally got everything w/ my mom done & got a 1 way rental & drove back. i got really sick right before leaving & it was a pretty awful trip. the last day i didnt sleep good & mom was sick by that point...and i was just sick & tired & not paying enough attention & got a stupid speeding ticket. stupid kansas! i hope that jerk cop got really sick lol. its $135...alot but not as much as i was afraid of...just pissed me off cause i hadnt had a speeding tix in a LONG time. i generally can spot them quite aways off & slow down in plenty of time. oh well. so it was a longer trip than normal since i was sooo sick & couldnt drive very long. and then when back here in CO, i just spent some time w/ my mom & sis before they left. its strange to be all alone here again...just me & ben again....i think it was easier when i could work & had some friends. now it just feels incredibly lonely...but i'm sure it'll get normal again 1 day. having meds would help but cant afford 'em. worrying enough about mortgage payments...very stressful times.

and another thing that has been worrying me ALOT. we found a lump on ashley's belly when in FL. ashley is my eldest baby...the mama of the baby pom too. so i finally took her to the vet right after getting back & she had to have surgery cause it was in such a spot that it could be breast cancer. so it was removed 2 sat's ago & we had pathology done & it was cancer. they said it didnt appear to be very aggressive & they dont think it is likely to spread but of course they arent sure. so we are going to have chest xrays done this wkend to make sure there are no tumors in the lungs. we cant even afford it but i would hate to not do it & something couldve been done. the surgery & pathology alone was like $300. so i'm of course still stressed until i know for sure...and worried cause my pups are really my babies & it terrifies me to imagine losing them. so now both my mom & my baby are breast cancer survivors (hopefully ashley will live many more days...she will be 10 on xmas day!)

ok that is it. sorry i have been MIA. just been pretty depressed & not feel like doing anything. i have got to get feeling better...need to find a new dr & try to get meds from the drug companies or samples cause i cant afford otherwise. sorry to my friends that have come by & wondered where i was. i will write you all soon...and visit your blogs...and send @ least some little goodies to my special buds for the holidays. i cant afford much but i want ya'll to know how much i cherish your friendship... and i still cant believe its the holidays already! thanksgiving & xmas...wow! i'm just sad that i cant be w/ my family too....it'll prob be a long time before i get 2 see them again.

xoox

soon...

b back REAL soon 4 a FAST update...stupid PC issues preventing me from doing it now. SOON promise sweetie darlings.


luv & misses u lots,
jen

computer problems again...

i cant catch a break w/ my laptop apparently! it keeps knocking me off my mom's dsl like every minute or 2. so i am having to use her PC until my bro can figure out what is going on & fix it. so i cant get onto my reader to even read my dear friends blogs & start leaving comments again. so hopefully i will have my laptop again soon & can have some time to catch up on bloggy reading & love.

i am hoping that while i am here i will get to see a few of my friends & classmates from high school. it will be really cool to see them & find out what they've been up to. i really hope i get to see bobbie (she moved again after jr high so its been awhile!), rebecca, sheree, elizabeth...and whomever else would like to hang out. so i'll let you know about that after i meet up w/ these special peeps...and of course take pix & share. its been like 15 yrs since i've seen any of these guys living here, so it should be exciting!

well thats it for now....i havent slept yet, my schedule is sooo whacked. so i better get some quick food & get some sleep. worrying about the constant lack of money doesnt help that ya know.

toodles my loves. talk to ya'll soon!! xxoo

i'm melting...

hey guys...well, i'm vacationing in sunny miami, florida...visiting w/ my mom & bro. it was totally a last minute decision...and i didnt really want my bro driving back all alone anyway. so we took a road trip & i brought my 4 doggies to visit gramdma so ben could have plenty of peace & quiet since he is home & working. so i've been here for a bit now & i dont know how i ever lived in this heat. it physically makes me ill...i made dinner tonight & i ended up throwing up from getting way too hot. i know i'm a whimp, lol, but obviously my body hates this weather now. wouldnt be too bad if i was having fun on the beach etc...but we havent done much yet. hopefully i can see a beach @ least once before i go back...and we have to use our timeshare so hopefully i will get to go to orlando & disney. yay...and hopefully i will have more than 3 days there this time so i can see my friend maggie who was in graf w/ me...i miss her. and hopefully on the way home, we will have some extra time so i can stop in st louis to see my other friend from graf, courtney. didnt have any extra time on the way out cause it was sooo last minute i packed that morning we left & we drove all but 5 hrs when we stopped to sleep...cause poor tom had to go back to wk. we were sooo tired when we got here...we had to eat krispy kreme donuts to keep awake on the last few hrs lol. so court...dont be mad, but i hopefully can see you @ least quickly on the way back, will let you know but it'll prob be in oct. yes, oct...nice long vacation lol. helping my mom out & taking her to her dr appts...and just spending time w/ her when i can is good. plus i'm still only 50% useful w/ my health & meds. =(

so we have seen a few movies, eaten some yummy cuban food, and watched the olympics & stuff. i did see the xfiles movie...i really enjoyed it though i didnt realize scully & mulder were an actual item until they were in bed together lol...what a pleasant surprise though! and wtf happened w/ william??? they never explained, grrr. anyway i still like the show & last movie better (give me aliens not just death lol)...and it couldve been better...but i would see anything xfiles & love even if its crap, which it wasnt imo. ben just thought it was ok though. what else...saw journey to the center of the earth in 3d...that was really good & a fun watch...even my bro enjoyed it even though he went just to take me & bee. so i took mom here cause i knew she love it. we also saw hulk & iron man in the $1.50 theatre...loved iron man, and hulk was ok, def better than the 1st (still HATE the cgi hulk, sooo stupid!). we just saw hellboy 2..also def better than the 1st & fun to watch though once is enough lol. and soon we will prob see house bunny, the rocker & mamma mia. oh & ben and i saw stepbrothers also...LOVED it...will ferrell & john c reilly are comic gods.

thats pretty much it...just went shopping @ marshalls today & got some super cute clearance shoes @ killer prices...a new bra & undies & some new cool pj's. i def. have to visit my fave (and super cheap) stores while i'm here...traffic shoe store & dots clothing....LOVE them sooo much. cant wait. and who knows what else. some yummy food, good bonding time w/ family & my little puppy bros. so dont know how often i will blog...will try to come by when i can & share some fun things (once i do more lol)...so def. sign up for my blog reader list on the sidebars or add it to your reader. and gosh i have NO idea how far behind in bloggy love i am...i imagine its pretty darn bad. so i need to feel better (cause my back has been really bad over a wk from no meds & i'm still recovering & mostly sleeping) & start getting back into it. sorry gals...i havent forgotten you PROMISE...nor did i just start ignoring you. i will be back soon & i'll make it up to ya'll. oh & if you guys can, please go read bee's blog...i know she'd love for ya'll to go say hi & kit w/ her...and also, she has a post about a contest that she is trying to win...and she needs your help visiting this site/blog & commenting...and if she wins, she is picking 1 winner who helps & giving some goodies to you. so go help! i'll email some of you about it soon...so hopefully you can for sure help.

ok ta ta for now. love you all. and promise i'll be back soon & by your blogs to leave some hugs & kisses. xoxoox

why so serious??....because....i want to believe

my bro is still here for another wk...he'll leave either late this wk or next wkend, depending on when his job puts him on the schedule next. the longer the better cause he's been busy moving my sis so i would like to spend more time w/ him & we want to see lots of movies but hard to see too many when ben wks so much.

speaking of movies...


we saw the new batman in imax the other day & it was sooo awesome!!! LOVED it. i think christian bale is soo yummy. and heath ledger was crazy good! i was totally blown away by this movie...definitely one of the best of the yr. and we're gonna see it in imax @ least once more. YAY! here is the trailer if ya'll wanna drool over mr. bale (you'll have to stop the music player @ the very bottom of my blog, sorry)...



YAY!! we are also gonna see this today....



soooo excited!!! i love me some x-files...it has been too long since we've had new x-files. so yeah, i'm pretty stoked for it. we will probably see 2-3 movies today since ben can only see stuff on wkends since his wk schedule is crazy. so i'll let you know what all we see (and the rest of the wk...for stuff ben doesnt care to see or has already seen)...and when i have more time i will fill you in on all the movies we've seen the last month or so. some really good ones!

well...i gotta headache from waking up @ like 2am. my sleep is sooo whacked lately. i finally slept some last nite & the nite before....but only maybe 4-5 hrs each. and then before that it was approx 6 hrs total for 4 days! crazy huh?? i dunno how i'm still functioning...insane! i just wanna be able to sleep again...might try going to the free clinic here (thanks to zoe for some info, i still have to check it all out though) & see what i can get....anything would be better than nothing. i need some major rest but cant get it on my own & w/out meds...so we'll see.

also, i'm really considering changing my blog. why? cause i found freewebs.com where i can have a full site...so i can have a blog, some photos, a store (eventually when i feel better), post my craft portfolio etc. i think it would be a nice change...to have a fully functionable website rather than just a blog. i'm really intrigued by it. so i think i am gonna play around w/ it & if i can make it to where i really like it, then i think i will go there. i think it looks pretty cool...ya'll should definitely take a peekie. if ya'll check it out, let me know what you think & of course let me know your site addy if you do start it up.

ok i think thats it. my head is hurting pretty bad so i'm gonna go for now but i will try to be back before too long. oh & i FINALLY got a webcam!! YAY!! so i will post some videos soon. and i'd love to im or video chat w/ ya'll! so let me know if ya'll like to do that...it would be sooo much fun! i have skype & all the im's: aol, yahoo, icq, msn etc...so we need to have some fun! ok i still havent had time to read blogs or catch up on comments...sorry. been in alot of pain & trying to cut back on my meds cause my insurance wont cover until 9/1 & it costs like $200, so i've been pretty miserable & having lots of migraines too. but i will start for sure once by bro leaves. ok ttyl. hope ya'll are having a wonderful wkend!

ps--if ya'll have coldstone by you...go try some watermelon sorbet...it is super yummo!!

xoxo

joss is da man!

hey ya! just some random stuff...


- i have been DYING to see this!!!



i have to watch it today & will buy it on itunes once the laptop is fixed...and buy the dvd & soundtrack when its out (and some shirts from here, as soon as they are back in stock--wow that was crazy fast selling out speed)! i love anything from joss...he is my hero! yes i love it all...serenity, firefly, angel, buffy...and 1 of my very fave episodes of buffy is once more with feeling. i LOVED it...a musical episode of buffy--genius!! yes i have them all on dvd (every show, every season!) & the soundtrack for "once more with feeling" & i swear i know all the words & sing it constantly! so of course i'm gonna love dr horrible...and i've heard all awesome reviews about it! (you know i think i owe joss my love of my fave shows that have many musical episodes...such as pushing daisies & eli stone...cant wait for them on dvd & supposedly there will be a pushing daisies soundtrack...YAY YAY! ok a little off topic from joss....but you know he inspires the other geniuses in hollywood...duh!) and of course what makes dr horrible even better?? nathan fillion & neil patrick harris...SWOON (only thing that would be more awesome is to have adam baldwin in it too...but no such luck this time)!!! thank goodness i can watch it today since it is the last day to view it FREE online (only until today, sunday @ 12am!!!)....so ya'll GO & watch it NOW (click the banner to go to the official site)!!!! *why i can NOW watch is below* and YAY that joss has a new show dollhouse premiering in the fall on FOX. BEYOND excited!!! hope its awesome (i'm sure it is) & pray that FOX wont cancel another awesome show (like wonderfalls, john doe, point pleasant, firefly etc etc, i normally dont watch FOX anymore but they renewed terminator: the sarah conner chronicles w/ the awesomely entertaining summer glau - and she was discovered by joss & in serenity/firefly...soooo, so far this last yr, they have started to redeem themselves in my eyes)


- YAY!!! found my old laptops power cord! it is now fully charged & i'm no longer having power issues. so i need to take back that defective universal charger to best buy...but WOOHOO that means i get $90 back & dont have to get another! now just need to remove my hard drive from the now broken laptop since i didnt backup some pix or all the american idol itunes downloads (which are no longer available) & i dont trust best buy to not accidently erase everything. yeah i have real confidence in this store here lol...and thats pretty bad cause my bro is 1 of the geek squad in miami (too bad he cant fix everything while he's here! lol). so i have lots of blog reading & commenting to catch up on...TONS!!! i will start soon but will be slow going & even more so since my bro is here for 2-3 wks...so i will be busy seeing movies, eating out & trying to have some fun visiting w/ family (except for my mom which stayed in FL cause its easier to not bring their doggies since tom is helping bee move...and cause she is still recovering from some eye damage/infections & bells palsy which isnt gone yet & she has been "legally blind" for a few wks now. so hope she will get better soon & have a nice rest...though i worry & miss her! she just didnt wanna see me lol.)

- i'm sooo tired...havent been sleeping & been in lots of pain. now my knees have been hurting real bad for a few wks now & nothing is helping. cant walk right, go up/down my stairs, or sleep. gotta go to drs soon...PRAYING its not rheumatoid arthritis (hope i spelled it right!)...my sis has it very badly for yrs now & nothing has really helped her & she is 100% disabled from it. so it is something i worry about getting & dont want anymore issues...and i had a blood test like probably almost 2 yrs ago & they wanted to retest soon cause it was either borderline or possibly slightly high & then i lost our medical insurance. well @ least it isnt a pre-existing condition so it'll be covered for the most part (except for the insane deductibles so i probably will have to pay for the blood tests--yuck!). so i am gonna try to get some sleep in just a min...

- BOO!! HISS!! have to cut back some weeds cause my bitch neighbor is a lawn nazi & wanted us to pull weeds near the border to our properties. which i CANT do cause of my disabilities...and ben has been wking like crazy. so it has to be done by tues cause she actually called & complained. what a HO! well she will be sorry cause i'm still NOT pulling them....nope, gonna cut them down which is all we have to do & only under a certain height....and they can keep driving her crazy. she needs a life & hobbies! and to stop leaving her dogs out @ 4-5am in all kinds of weather, even freezing & snow & they bark & whine...well guess who is no longer gone be nice about that stuff??? and after all the crap we've done for her over the yrs...like she goes out of town w/ no notice & has another neighbor tell us to feed & let out her dogs...and she didnt even leave enough food, we had to spend $30 for more food which she NEVER paid back! and how about when she had knee surgery & the other neighbor again says we need to stay w/ her overnite to make sure she is ok (all cause this old lady is too afraid of a big, sweetest dog ever, a newfoundland...a total gentle sweet girl). ben had to stay up all nite over there cause my meds knock me out. and this is how we are repaid??


ok...thats it for now, over & out. will be back w/ more soon...and to deliver some bloggy love that my poor friends are overdue. thx for always understanding that my health is a major issue & gets me very behind so quickly...and for knowing that i may still be gone some while my fam is around. luv u guys. the bestest friends eva!! =)


ps---hmm....why am i so darn wordy on my blog? why cant i just get right to the point. quick, easy, simple & not so much word vomit? i'm jealous that everyone else can write important short posts but i feel like this is dear diary apparently...*sigh*

laptop issues...

hey, gotta make this quick. i hardly have any internet access cause to start, the power here is going out every wk & knocked out my wireless network AGAIN. so i cant use the desktop pc. i was plugging the laptop into the modem to get online but the other day the screen flashed like it would if it was unplugged & conserving battery power. i thought nothing of it. then when i tried to plug in & turn on the next day...the battery is completely dead & wont charge or turn on. so i have some type of a power problem w/ it & its going into best buy this wkend for service (thank goodness for extended service plans!). so it'll be gone @ least a few wks i imagine. so i dug out my old laptop from before my bro bought me the shiny new 1 last may. well i somehow had lost the power cord...maybe i left it @ my moms in FL...who knows. so we got a $90 universal power cord @ best buy for now...but it is such a piece of junk that is is plugged in correctly but any slight movement can disconnect it...and now its just turning off the laptop & not wking for no reason. so it might shut off any minute....it already shut off 3 times in 30 mins for no reason. so i will get another this wkend since this 1 is obviously defective...but my bro is coming into town to help my sis move & will be here for 2 wks & we'll be helping them & hanging out. and thank goodness he is bringing a new wireless router since the 1 he set up in oct is obviously screwy cause it shouldnt lose the settings & stay offline when it loses power & then is rebooted. so once he leaves, our wireless dsl will be fixed again & hopefully not an issue ever again. and hopefully i will have my laptop back by then or a power cord that works on the other 1. so if i cant get on to update for 2 wks or so...you know why. sorry but better go cause i dont trust this power source. i'll try to update my twitter everyday or 2...whenever i can get online enough to have 10 mins to do it...so follow me there until i get back. sorry this is quick & to the point. i've been a lousy blogger but hopefully i'll be back very soon & have lots of fun things to share!

xxo J